Comfort

After the tears have dried I always feel warm almost like someone embraces me, even if there isn't anyone around. And when the puffy eyes are gone I start to feel cold and sad again. And so I went on and on for months just to feel better for a brief moment. And now I shed so many tears that there aren't many left.
I really have trouble to show any real feelings at all, I just shut myself away when people are around and act like I don't care about anything that is obviously troubling me. Sometimes it just bursts out of me. It's a very unfortunate mixture of sadness and rage, I start to cry and shout at others at the same moment. But most of the time I can't shed tears at all even if I want to.

I'm sick of crying but I wish I still could be able to more often...
Sorry for presenting you such a depressing drawing again but I totally don't feel like drawing pretty stuff at the moment.